Read the winning piece of our 2025 Nonfiction Contest “Through the Mirror” by Jessie Cato selected by Lucy Ives.

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Summer 2014 |

Birth of the Doppelgänger

It was on the highway, high beams
cut across mangled ribs. Road kill

decorated the way home,
stink-mouthed and stun-eyed. Opossums opened

and I stepped into them. I stepped
into the jowls of the dead, into

the stench. Flies scoured the decayed
innards like priests washing temple walls.

It was ecstatic, the flipped-over car,
smoke and the circus acts of fly

buzz near a broken wolf, wolf broken
into by pregnant swarms, wolf teeth

shined beyond gum swell above tongue,
behind cheek, after blood spill

and my car spilled until all hell spilled
and you want to know what the taste was like?

I’ll tell you at the crash’s wake
was a new life. My new self

bled out from the old self, left
behind a husk, the heart’s slow drip

and stain. My lungs were drunk off exhaust
and pricked by daggers of wood. One eye

remained in the skull and stared at my new,
wet self. Hair grew violently from

my fresh scalp. My new skin was violet
and rolled up like panty hose

over the bones, over the muscles’ red
and white, and this shiny new skull where I made

room for nothing but this body’s
first words. See my mouth move, like this—

Photo of Phillip B. Williams

Phillip B. Williams is author of the novel Ours (Viking, 2024) and the full-length poetry collections Mutiny (Penguin Poets, 2021), winner of the 2022 American Book Award, and Thief in the Interior (Alice James Books, 2016), winner of the Kate Tufts Discovery Award, a Whiting Award, and a Lambda Literary Award, all in 2017. His work has appeared or is forthcoming in Boston Review, Callaloo, The Kenyon Review, The New Republic, The New Yorker, and elsewhere. A nominee for an NAACP Image Award in poetry, Williams is the recipient of fellowships from the Pew Center for Arts & Heritage, the National Endowment for the Arts, and the Harvard Radcliffe Institute. He serves as a faculty member in the MFA programs of New York University and Randolph College.