In Windsor they blame it on machines across the Detroit River. Residents can't ignore the low frequency hum taking the shape of a sea serpent on oscilloscopes. Beyond gray snow, plastic bags, and crushed hypodermic needles, I know Zug Island is humming—waiting the way the organs in me are waiting. My body is a building full of machines, some more complex than others: needle nosed pliers, pistols, a satellite—all ignoring my commands to sit still. But the snow wants to kiss us, I hear my skin say. The sea, pouring from gutters toward the sea that must be out there waiting— eardrums covet the rushing. Just snow melting, I say to the thrumming machines, but my voice is easy to ignore. So I find myself drawn again to needles of light through drawn blinds, needles of wind through a window's failing. A sea of all the outside I try to ignore, the hum that won't calm and won't wait. This oscillating piston of a heart, the machine that should know better, wants to see snow tremble. It goes on about this rumor of snow vibrating on that island where old factories needle into the sky. You can hear it. A machine that doesn't know it's dead sending a sea of pulses across shore because it's tired of waiting for someone to talk to. Tired of being ignored. I know you want to answer it, I say. Don't ignore what I told you about circuit boards and snow. My jittery friends, I know waiting is a hand closing slowly around needle points, but we need the patience of a frozen sea. Sometimes that quiets my machines, the hum gets easier to ignore. But pine needles still fall gold. Dead trees creak. A rain-gutter sea waits, machine-gray, and my throat begs to drink the snow.
